The PA

PA stand for Pathogen Analysis. It’s a standard procedure after an operation. PA needed to make sure, were the preparatory, the myoma from my uterus might sign to be dangerous or just an ordinary substance. That’s why sometimes the surgery ask or recommend the patient to do the pathogen analysis. This was made to make the patient sure and feel free from the unnecessary and negative thought.

So, to ensure that everything’s good and normal, my hubby took the preparatory to the pathogen analysis laboratory.  It usually took around 1 or 2 weeks, to finish the analysis. Little did we know that the process can’t be replaced, so my hubby go to the lab to fill the form and finish the administration. Later the result also can’t be deliver to another person, only the patient or their family.

Later when result has been done, the conclusion on a single note, need to be brought to the gynecologist to the next treatment the patient needed. It was just a normal fibroid, non cancerous. It’s written clearly and briefly signed by the head of the facility, for attention to my gynecologist. I couldn’t imagine how it would be such a horrible nightmare if the result different. How I had to prepare the next treatment and the medicine I had to take, the special diet and strict food restriction. Thank God, it’s fine.

For the detail I must wait the next examination and consultation. The physical  examination also needed regularly, every 3 or 6 months to control the early stage growth or regrowth inside. Actually, there are common case that most women don’t visit their gynecologist regularly and take a pap smear test every certain months as recommended. Mostly, including me only see the doctors when I feel something wrong with my body and felt not well. Oh well, at least the pathogen analysis makes us a little bit safe and secure.



On Tuesday evening after the examination, I can get down from the hospital bed and try to walk. Lucky there’s no sign of dizziness or nausea. I could change into my ordinary clothes, I might go to the bathroom by my self. No need to put the yellow ribbon again. No more fall risk patient. It’s very relief that my patience waiting more than 24 hours,  has a good result.

A little bit accident turn into blessing. I accidentally put off the intravenous drip valve, so the nurse need to put it in in another vein.  So I ask the nurse to contact the doctor whether  I didn’t need it anymore. Well finally the doctor agreed and it’s a good news. I could sleep tight and easily without the infuse valve.  It’s free to move, I even try to roam on the nurse station outside.

My husband had to go to work on Tuesday so he visited me after the office hours in the night. Actually, a family member allowed to stay to accompany the patient for a better caring and to make the patient more comfort.  My roommate’s husband always stay beside her. I think he should take some unpaid leave from his work. But with his wife condition labile and so weak, how can he work easily? My husband  not always stay by my side after the surgery. But our daughter need him too. Beside how could I ask him to sleep there in a folding bed or mattress on cold and narrow corner of the room. Our house only around one or two kilometers from the hospital. If something bad happened to me, he  could be contacted easily.

It was so relief the second night in the hospital, I could sleep tight until the next morning. The nurse even pull the curtain close it tight and turn off the lamp. I think the best dream I had, was going home tomorrow,


The Roommate

The first class in patient facility that my health insurance cover, has two beds for two patient as the hospital roommate. It was coincidence. My name and my roommate’s  name were almost similar. She’s one of the referral patient from other health facility who needed intensive care and nursing. So she was being sent in.

The case was her weak uterus, earlier contraction led to miscarriage.  It’s the second chance. The first one didn’t make it, so they, the young nice couple decide to have intensive care pre natal treatment. It’s a complicated case. Need a lot of patience, time, energy consuming and a high cost hopefully their insurance company cover it.

With the myoma, the fibroid inside, my uterus force to contract as a reaction that led to high and heavy bleeding periods. Well actually both of our case could lead to dangerous situation, in her case involving her unborn too. How lucky I was. My two pregnancy healthy with no serious indication and problems. In many cases, the pregnancy it self could be a threat to both mother and the baby.

I was just lying in my bed, waiting for after 24 hours to lift my head and my chin then I can try to sit.  I was able to sleep on two other side, so I wouldn’t feel  my body ache n shore. I hadn’t come down my bed, waiting for the nurse to prepare and check my condition. But for sure it soon will be done.

My room mate, must obey the doctor’s order to just lying still, she couldn’t barely change into the  other position. Every single move consider to have a serious impact to the womb and could harm her baby inside. Since I was in, there are many kind of treatment that must be done to keep her and the baby safe. I remember a very old story about an Italian actress who desperately want to have her own baby and need a total bed rest for her two pregnancies. That’s a mothers instinct.  A truly sacrifice. Her name is Sophia Loren


It was a middle hot bright day on the third Monday of November when they push the bed through the isles, into the elevator up to the third floor. My body was barely cold, I felt so cold for the next 2 or 3 hours later under the influence sedation effect. I can sense the cold, but couldn’t  move my limb, my half body.

The thought about the paralyzed body that permanently can not move, made me feel grateful of how lucky I was healthy and complete. Sometimes we just missed something when we don’t have it anymore. We used to think and felt walking, running and moving anywhere freely as an ordinary, but how if we were the paralyzed body that need tools, device and help only to move, a single subtle move.  How lucky, I couldn’t imagine how frustrate and bad I would be.

The anesthetist told me to move and exercise my muscle, anytime I regain my nerve back. He also asked me to lye side by side, to a better body adaptation. But he told me not to lift up my head in 24 hours after the surgery. It could lead to dizziness and nausea that should be avoid after a surgery. Soon I regain my half lower body consciousness and try to move it little by little.  It didn’t feel hurt, just a little bit heavy sensation. A bit hard on first trial.

The nurse told me to eat anything I want,  No diet an restriction.  So my Husband fed me. I was so thirsty yet hungry. The last meal I took was the evening before. The food and the fluids intake were strictly prohibited before the surgery. Well I was glad I could drink and eat again.

The paralyzed sensation only temporary.  That’s the way the gynecologist could pull the myoma out without incision. I felt relief because the procedure end up succeed. No incision and I sill have my uterus with me.

The Surgery

It was almost the middle of the day when the gynecologist arrived to do the myoma surgery procedure. She was a bit surprise met me two week after she gave me the surgery referral. I was supposed to come the week before, but there’re some situations prohibit me from earlier treatment. I was lucky on that day no other surgery schedule, the anesthetist  even look sleepy and a bit boring while waiting. So everybody feel relief when she finally show up, after finishing the other surgery in another hospital.

The anesthetist  gave me two shot on my spinal. It felt hurt, a bit strange but what can I do, it was the only way it should be done. It felt strange and didn’t  take so long before I couldn’t barely move my limb. I felt motionless, I could feel n sense but couldn’t barely move my lower body even for a single gently motion.

The lamps was so bright, I was awake with eyes wide open couldn’t move my half lower body but wasn’t feel pain at all. The surgery assistants even try to mock each other and asked me some silly questions, just to make me feel relax. The blood pressure monitor in my upper arm beeped the signal every several minute to make sure my condition was stable.

I sense a bit pulling down move from my stomach. It must be the time when the surgeon pulled  the myomat. the uteri fibroid out  my womb. It just a little bit weird sensation but not hurt at all. All I could do was waiting, praying, have some thought and always in state of positive thinking. The surrender to whatever will be, made me peaceful, relax, positive and unafraid not  worried at all.

Thank God, the procedure succeed. As the plan before, the fibroid successfully been pull out without incision. There some blood and normal bleeding. The gynecologist check it again later, make everything’s good before they send me to the in patient facility. It was the middle day around 2.