The Second Trial

I put a side the cucumber juice and took the medicine my gynecologist gave me for about 10 days. Not sure if it work good or not, but I wasn’t feeling a good and significant improve on my health. I switch to another option, the single clove garlic and some natural herbals emulsion. It taste a bit tangy, weird and smelly, but who care if you need the the goodness inside.

My periods become much heavier than usual. There a lot of blood cloth and tissue on the napkins. The herbal medicine I took, mostly for detoxify the toxin in my body out. I don’t know which organ toxin from. If you took the alternatives medicine, usually they’re not clinically test and proven. Of course there’s some local wisdom about the healing property that a plant specially have and develop for its own shake. Garlic for example,  they have a lot of health benefits  inside,  beside rich in flavor. It may lower cancer risk and cholesterol. It also has anty-inflammatory effect also improves insulin sensitivity. What a lot of goodness in that miracle herbs, a truly heaven gift.

I hope the second herbal choice I took give a lot of healing property benefits my health. Of course it’s sound like an experiment. But why didn’t give it a try? Since it’s still hard for me lying on operating theater to remove my uterus out . Just imagine went under the knife made feel pain and scared.

Actually if I could choose, I still considering that the herbal medicine is the natural way my body can adapt to most. I truly am prefer the natural way because I have allergic reaction to some medicine and some substances. I though that the best way  to stay safe was avoid the triggers. Well I know that I must take some risk, but if it for our own shake, why not?


The Denial

I feel good and optimistic that at least I know the situation. I did some on line research, read a lot of article and publication about the myomas. Luckily myomas mostly non cancerous. It grows in uterus during the childbearing years.  Some women have symptoms some don’t so it went unnoticed. That’s why on some cases, it was  too late and it could lead to cancerous growth.

But surgery is scaring and it’s not simple  thing. not an everyday moment that happened without any cause. I think the idea of hysterectomy it self stress me out. There some alternatives medicine especially with herbal or natural medicine. I hope it work and doing good on me.

First thing first my result about the alternatives medicine that I choose is the slimy sea cucumber juice. It taste a bit weird but still smell okay. Not bad. but even it taste horribly worse, if it has the healing property, why not? If you in my position, of course you can go to the doctor, do exactly like you  had to.  in my case, I just want to do my part, my intention is to avoid the surgery. It didn’t feel right and it’s my choice to postpone the surgery my gynecologist order me to. Well I don’t find any big difference. But on  my second visit to the doctor, indicated a bit swelling so the gynecologist gave me some antibiotics.

My periods still normal and regular, it means around 25 days and heavy bleeding for 4-5 days. I get use with heavier periods and I though it’s normal for my age as pre menopause and aging process. Little did I know that it’s the myoma inside my uterus that cause heavy bleeding during the periods.

When I looked back at how my previous years it used to be heavy but not so heavy that my IUD threw out from my womb. I just realized that it could be the growing myoma that made my Intrauterine device, as my birth control device, couldn’t no longer cope the myoma’s growing inside.



Surprise is a surprise, weather is good or not. I was shocked with the diagnose from my gynecologist that I had to remove out my uterus, my womb because the  myoma  fibroids  was too big and risky. Oh my goodness, hysterectomy is way to big and shocked. I am 47, in a good health, thanks God but to lose one of my organ, especially a feminine organ that differ me as a complete woman, although I have already been blessed wit two beautiful yet smart daughters it’s not an easy thing. I think I need to rethinking it again and again.

Myoma Fibroids, myoma geburt, myoma uteri there’s a lot of articles you googling but basically most woman have them. It just bothering or not. Some women have heavy bleeding in their periods, cram, pain, some just have normal periods with a little fuss. It really unique and very individual symptoms. Although most woman have myomas in their uterus, it doesn’t mean a very bad condition and they can have n live peacefully with them without hesitation.

Some woman even don’t care much about the situation and finally know it was too late for medication. Of course there some choice if they don’t want a surgery procedure. But still it considered to be dangerous n painful to keep. Imagine how shocked it was when you though that everything’s fine, undercontroll and normal. It’s just almost heavy periods, cram and pain that we get used to. Then the gynecologist the myoma inside is too big and must removed out immediately.

I think I need some time to ensure my self.  it doesn’t important why and how now but for sure I must take some actions, not juat let it be and let it go. It doesn’t matter how, it must be gone as soon as possible.

I wish I could known my own body better